Super quick announcement (while taking a mini break from my homework) to announce that Jensen cut his first tooth on Saturday 4/21! Our little man sure is growing up!
I love you Bubs!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
{Missing} my daddy
Not a single day goes by where I don't think of my dad, how much I miss him and wish he was here to experience all of the things in my life along with me. I also don't have a day that goes by that I don't think about his last day on Earth and how he suffered. I literally still get sick thinking about it, and try to let it go, but I can't (not yet).
The last time I saw my dad was when we went out to dinner for my brother's birthday (which was yesterday by the way) and than I talked to him a lot after that. I didn't see him after because I went to Colorado for Dakota's heart surgery. I talked to my dad a lot during that time because he paid for Dakota's surgery (and yes I still owe them the money for it) and I was pregnant, sick, and not wanting to be there. He kept me calm during that time. I talked to my dad when we got back, but it was Sunday and I had to be to work the next day so I didn't go over there on the weekend like usual.
I talked to my dad on 4/19 (the day he passed away) and the conversation and that day will live forever in my mind and my heart. I will never forget telling him that he sounded like sh*t and that he should go lay down because he was sick and he wasn't sleeping well. He told me that he would probably go lay down that afternoon and try to get some rest before my mom got home. I told him I loved him and to get better soon. The next thing I know, it is just after 6pm and Corey and I are leaving Walmart (grocery shopping for the week) and my mom is on the phone in tears saying that my dad isn't breathing and it isn't good and I need to go to Alta View Hospital. She said not to rush that it was okay to go home and put groceries away. I told my mom that it would be okay and I would be there soon. I cried hysterically all the way home, threw the food in the fridge as fast as I could and Corey and I got to the hospital. When I finally saw my mom and my dad, I could tell that my dad had already passed away. My mom was in hysterics and holding onto him. I continued crying hysterically and gripping onto my dads shirt and sitting on the floor of the ER. I guess they tried to revive him, but it was too late. Thinking that my dad suffered since he couldn't breath on his back is the worst part. Also, knowing that he got rid of his medical alert watch makes me angry. I also am still angry that he was able to call 911 and they showed up at the house, went through the backyard, and never tried to get inside. I am angry and sad still and I don't know how long it will take until I don't feel this way.
The only positive is that he is no longer in pain and that I know he is watching out for me. I know that he kept Jensen and I safe during my pregnancy and he kept Jensen safe during my c-section. I know that he watches out for my entire family so nothing bad will happen. I know that when I pass a class with an A that he is smiling down on me and would be telling me how proud of me he is for going back to school and not giving up no matter what - and getting good grades while doing it. My dad was also such a good reinforcer and was always there as my sound board and person I could go to for advice, especially financially. He wanted to make sure I had a plan and I wasn't in debt. He would do everything he could to help me have a good future. I know my dad would be beyond proud to know that we are making decisions and buying our first house as a family.
Daddy - I am sorry I don't visit you, but I don't believe you are there. I believe that you are in my heart and always with me where ever I go. I love days when the sun is shining - I feel it is you telling me that you are happy and doing okay. Let the sun shine, Dad! I miss you and love you very much!
The last time I saw my dad was when we went out to dinner for my brother's birthday (which was yesterday by the way) and than I talked to him a lot after that. I didn't see him after because I went to Colorado for Dakota's heart surgery. I talked to my dad a lot during that time because he paid for Dakota's surgery (and yes I still owe them the money for it) and I was pregnant, sick, and not wanting to be there. He kept me calm during that time. I talked to my dad when we got back, but it was Sunday and I had to be to work the next day so I didn't go over there on the weekend like usual.
I talked to my dad on 4/19 (the day he passed away) and the conversation and that day will live forever in my mind and my heart. I will never forget telling him that he sounded like sh*t and that he should go lay down because he was sick and he wasn't sleeping well. He told me that he would probably go lay down that afternoon and try to get some rest before my mom got home. I told him I loved him and to get better soon. The next thing I know, it is just after 6pm and Corey and I are leaving Walmart (grocery shopping for the week) and my mom is on the phone in tears saying that my dad isn't breathing and it isn't good and I need to go to Alta View Hospital. She said not to rush that it was okay to go home and put groceries away. I told my mom that it would be okay and I would be there soon. I cried hysterically all the way home, threw the food in the fridge as fast as I could and Corey and I got to the hospital. When I finally saw my mom and my dad, I could tell that my dad had already passed away. My mom was in hysterics and holding onto him. I continued crying hysterically and gripping onto my dads shirt and sitting on the floor of the ER. I guess they tried to revive him, but it was too late. Thinking that my dad suffered since he couldn't breath on his back is the worst part. Also, knowing that he got rid of his medical alert watch makes me angry. I also am still angry that he was able to call 911 and they showed up at the house, went through the backyard, and never tried to get inside. I am angry and sad still and I don't know how long it will take until I don't feel this way.
The only positive is that he is no longer in pain and that I know he is watching out for me. I know that he kept Jensen and I safe during my pregnancy and he kept Jensen safe during my c-section. I know that he watches out for my entire family so nothing bad will happen. I know that when I pass a class with an A that he is smiling down on me and would be telling me how proud of me he is for going back to school and not giving up no matter what - and getting good grades while doing it. My dad was also such a good reinforcer and was always there as my sound board and person I could go to for advice, especially financially. He wanted to make sure I had a plan and I wasn't in debt. He would do everything he could to help me have a good future. I know my dad would be beyond proud to know that we are making decisions and buying our first house as a family.
Daddy - I am sorry I don't visit you, but I don't believe you are there. I believe that you are in my heart and always with me where ever I go. I love days when the sun is shining - I feel it is you telling me that you are happy and doing okay. Let the sun shine, Dad! I miss you and love you very much!
Our first {home} as three + Dakota
Looks like we are going to be home owners very very very soon!
Corey and I have been looking for a home for our little family for about a month now. We have an amazing realtor {Amie Jensen - fab last name haha} and I got her by a referral from an old neighbor who is also a co-worker. He got his short-sale house through her and just loved working with her. We have only had great things to say about her now too. She works really hard to find you everything you want and pays attention to the must-haves vs the want-haves (haha)! Corey and I put an offer in on a house in Sandy right across from Alta View Hospital (the backyard is 1300 E) on March 27th I believe and expected to hear back in 48 hours. We didn't hear anything come Thursday night so Amie said Friday. Friday came and went and she said they are waiting to hear from the bank so it will probably be Monday. Needless to say, the waiting was killing me. Plus, knowing their was multiple offers in was a bit overwhelming and not knowing if our offer of just $500 over the asking price would be enough. Monday night (last night) came and I thought it was going to go... until Amie called! I texted her at 7 saying I was feeling a little discouraged and wondering if this was normal and she called at 7:19 saying we got the house! We started some paper work tonight and hopefully everything goes smoothly from here on out. Next up is an inspection I believe.
The house is in a great neighborhood that seems really well-kept. The home (OUR home!) has 4 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms and is about 1850 square feet. The location is BEYOND ideal and the view is the best part about it. Plus, we are only going to be a block from my mom which is great since Marissa still watches Jensen 3x a week. The area is exactly where I grew up and what I am familiar with. I have ALWAY wanted to live in Sandy near my childhood home and now we get to. I feel so fortunate and grateful to be getting this house and living in Sandy. Jensen is going to grow up in a great area just like I did. Lucky kid! Lucky US!
Corey and I have been looking for a home for our little family for about a month now. We have an amazing realtor {Amie Jensen - fab last name haha} and I got her by a referral from an old neighbor who is also a co-worker. He got his short-sale house through her and just loved working with her. We have only had great things to say about her now too. She works really hard to find you everything you want and pays attention to the must-haves vs the want-haves (haha)! Corey and I put an offer in on a house in Sandy right across from Alta View Hospital (the backyard is 1300 E) on March 27th I believe and expected to hear back in 48 hours. We didn't hear anything come Thursday night so Amie said Friday. Friday came and went and she said they are waiting to hear from the bank so it will probably be Monday. Needless to say, the waiting was killing me. Plus, knowing their was multiple offers in was a bit overwhelming and not knowing if our offer of just $500 over the asking price would be enough. Monday night (last night) came and I thought it was going to go... until Amie called! I texted her at 7 saying I was feeling a little discouraged and wondering if this was normal and she called at 7:19 saying we got the house! We started some paper work tonight and hopefully everything goes smoothly from here on out. Next up is an inspection I believe.
The house is in a great neighborhood that seems really well-kept. The home (OUR home!) has 4 bedrooms and 3 bathrooms and is about 1850 square feet. The location is BEYOND ideal and the view is the best part about it. Plus, we are only going to be a block from my mom which is great since Marissa still watches Jensen 3x a week. The area is exactly where I grew up and what I am familiar with. I have ALWAY wanted to live in Sandy near my childhood home and now we get to. I feel so fortunate and grateful to be getting this house and living in Sandy. Jensen is going to grow up in a great area just like I did. Lucky kid! Lucky US!
Monday, March 19, 2012
Going B-A-N-A-N-A-S
Jensen finally got to start eating food other than his rice cereal. I had made homemade baby food (squash) and tried it for the first three days, as suggested, but he hated it! I tried it warm, with breast milk, etc and he still wouldn't eat more than three bits. I gave up...well, moved on. I bought some applesauce and some bananas today. I put a piece of banana in his cereal tonight and he scarfed it down! He loved it like I thought he would!
My mom bought Jensen an awesome bouncer that he got to use for the first time today and he LOVED it! I took some really cute video of him jumping like a crazy boy. I think it really wore him out too which was good for us!
Corey and I are looking for a house again. We are sick of renting here and our rent is going up $80 a month when our lease is up! Nuts! I can't believe how much it has raised since we first moved in here. We decided it was time to start house hunting again. We looked over the weekend at 5 houses but didn't see anything good. Our realtor Amie is awesome and is working really hard to find us a good home. She has shown us a lot of home that are *not* short sales and that is pretty excited since we could close and move fast if we wanted/needed. In the meantime we will probably just keep looking and when our lease is up we will do month-to-month. House hunting is hard and not very fun, but I am eager to find us something great. All the time spending looking and all the preapproval paperwork is a drag though! Hopefully it pays off... and soon!
Both of my classes that I thought were going to kill me are officially over! My economics class just wrapped up yesterday. I started one new class today (business information systems) and I start another class next Monday that I believe is business ethics or something like that. I think I am going to like both of these a lot more and I'm hoping they aren't as time consuming as the last two. Those math tests took me forever! In math I wrapped up with an B- which I won't complain about and I am not sure about econ but I will know by Sunday.
This week is Ava's first birthday and I can't believe it! I remember Anja telling me she was pregnant at my bachelorette party! Ava is now walking (although she frequently tips over still) and it is just so fun watching her progress as a little one! I can't believe how this past year flew by. I love that we have friends with kids that aren't too far apart from Jensen. Now... we just need to find time to hang out more!
Okay... off to work on my homework. The story of my life haha
My mom bought Jensen an awesome bouncer that he got to use for the first time today and he LOVED it! I took some really cute video of him jumping like a crazy boy. I think it really wore him out too which was good for us!
Corey and I are looking for a house again. We are sick of renting here and our rent is going up $80 a month when our lease is up! Nuts! I can't believe how much it has raised since we first moved in here. We decided it was time to start house hunting again. We looked over the weekend at 5 houses but didn't see anything good. Our realtor Amie is awesome and is working really hard to find us a good home. She has shown us a lot of home that are *not* short sales and that is pretty excited since we could close and move fast if we wanted/needed. In the meantime we will probably just keep looking and when our lease is up we will do month-to-month. House hunting is hard and not very fun, but I am eager to find us something great. All the time spending looking and all the preapproval paperwork is a drag though! Hopefully it pays off... and soon!
Both of my classes that I thought were going to kill me are officially over! My economics class just wrapped up yesterday. I started one new class today (business information systems) and I start another class next Monday that I believe is business ethics or something like that. I think I am going to like both of these a lot more and I'm hoping they aren't as time consuming as the last two. Those math tests took me forever! In math I wrapped up with an B- which I won't complain about and I am not sure about econ but I will know by Sunday.
This week is Ava's first birthday and I can't believe it! I remember Anja telling me she was pregnant at my bachelorette party! Ava is now walking (although she frequently tips over still) and it is just so fun watching her progress as a little one! I can't believe how this past year flew by. I love that we have friends with kids that aren't too far apart from Jensen. Now... we just need to find time to hang out more!
Okay... off to work on my homework. The story of my life haha
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Simple {update}
Not too much going on... at least that is new.
Classes are done this week and than I only have 4 more to go. Still on track to graduate July 29th! I finished math with a B- which I will gladly take. Economics final this week and than I should hopefully have the hardest classes behind me.
Jensen is my little rock star. He is so smart, funny, and lovable. He can sit by himself for awhile, he eats cereal like a champ, and loves to splash in the bath. Jensen loves time with his daddy and making silly sounds and faces at each other. You are not sleeping through the night every night, but you only wake up once (usually) so I can definitely handle that. You sleep on your stomach and I can't manage to keep you on your back for more than two seconds. You love to roll over. You have rolled from your belly to your back, but you don't do it anymore. You are super strong so I know you will get the hang of it again soon. I made homemade squash for your first baby food and you get to try that in a week! I am sure you will love it. You love food and always want to steal what your dad and I are eating and drinking. Your next doctors appointment is at six months which will be in just a few short weeks. I can't believe that you are already 5 months (and a week).
Work is good and I can never complain about my job and who I work with/for. I still look forward to coming to work every day and doing something that I feel matters.
Classes are done this week and than I only have 4 more to go. Still on track to graduate July 29th! I finished math with a B- which I will gladly take. Economics final this week and than I should hopefully have the hardest classes behind me.
Jensen is my little rock star. He is so smart, funny, and lovable. He can sit by himself for awhile, he eats cereal like a champ, and loves to splash in the bath. Jensen loves time with his daddy and making silly sounds and faces at each other. You are not sleeping through the night every night, but you only wake up once (usually) so I can definitely handle that. You sleep on your stomach and I can't manage to keep you on your back for more than two seconds. You love to roll over. You have rolled from your belly to your back, but you don't do it anymore. You are super strong so I know you will get the hang of it again soon. I made homemade squash for your first baby food and you get to try that in a week! I am sure you will love it. You love food and always want to steal what your dad and I are eating and drinking. Your next doctors appointment is at six months which will be in just a few short weeks. I can't believe that you are already 5 months (and a week).
Work is good and I can never complain about my job and who I work with/for. I still look forward to coming to work every day and doing something that I feel matters.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Rollin, rollin, rollin
Jensen can now roll over from his back to his belly! He did it for the first time yesterday at his grandma Jill's house while she was tending him. He has been trying really hard for about a week now but he would get caught on his arm under his body and it would fling him back onto his back. Now, he goes so fast and his arm still gets caught under him, but he can work it out from under him. It is so funny to watch and I am such a proud mommy of all of his accomplishments. It may be something small, but it's a big deal to me! Way to go Jensen, Mama Bear loves you and is so proud of you!
Friday, February 10, 2012
{rice} cereal
Jensen had his 4 month check-up yesterday morning and everything was PERFECT! He now weights 15.3 pounds and is 26 inches long! He has grown 5 inches since he was born! He is actually in the 90th percentile for height and somewhere in the 70th percentile for weight. I thought it would have more since he eats like a piggy! The doc said he is ahead in his fine motor skills since he grabs and holds onto stuff. He also puts good weight on feet, follows toys, holds his neck up, etc. His head is perfectly round, and his ears/nose/throat all check out fine. He is one healthy and happy baby (after the shots). He got permission to start eating rice cereal so we tried it for this first time tonight and...
IT WAS A SUCCESS!
He loved the organic brown rice cereal I started him on today! He didn't like the baby spoon, but it ate all of it off my finger... and some from the spoon. He never spit it out either. He loved it and can't wait for him to eat it every night. Hopefully it will keep him full.
The {OTHER} fab success you ask???
Jensen has now slept all through the night for 2 nights in a row! It seems that when he hits a new month something great happens. At 3 months he moved into his big boy crib and has been there ever since. Now at 4 months not only is he moving onto his first 'solid' foods, but he is sleeping through the night! Dr. O said that babies at this after are capable of sleeping through the night but a lot don't because they burn so many calories that they need a night time feeding. He said feeding Jensen the rice cereal at night before bedtime will keep him fuller longer because his belly will have to work harder to digest it.
Okay - I better get back to my homework! I HATE my econ class! Finishing week 4 of econ and week 5 of math - half way there for these ones... woo hoo!
IT WAS A SUCCESS!
He loved the organic brown rice cereal I started him on today! He didn't like the baby spoon, but it ate all of it off my finger... and some from the spoon. He never spit it out either. He loved it and can't wait for him to eat it every night. Hopefully it will keep him full.
The {OTHER} fab success you ask???
Jensen has now slept all through the night for 2 nights in a row! It seems that when he hits a new month something great happens. At 3 months he moved into his big boy crib and has been there ever since. Now at 4 months not only is he moving onto his first 'solid' foods, but he is sleeping through the night! Dr. O said that babies at this after are capable of sleeping through the night but a lot don't because they burn so many calories that they need a night time feeding. He said feeding Jensen the rice cereal at night before bedtime will keep him fuller longer because his belly will have to work harder to digest it.
Okay - I better get back to my homework! I HATE my econ class! Finishing week 4 of econ and week 5 of math - half way there for these ones... woo hoo!
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