Thursday May 12th (two days from now) I will know what we are having! I am so freakin excited I can hardly stand it! I am still thinking it is a girl, but surprisingly a lot of people are thinking boy. Some say it is because of my bump and some just think that is what we are having. Corey would like a boy and I would love a boy too, so we will know soon (not soon enought!) what Monkey is! We asked both of our mommy's to join us so that will be really fun to share it with them. I know that I didn't involve many people in the wedding process but I feel that babies are totally different. I am growing our family and I want my family to be involved in that.
I am really excited to start working on the nursery too. I started working on cleaning out Baby's closet, but I feel I made a bigger mess. At least one section is organized! My goal was to have the room empty and organized in May, but now I am shooting for June. I want to have it all done in my second trimester so that I am not too big and in too much pain to do it. I know I will need help now, but I don't want to be completely dependant on Corey doing all of it. Hopefully by the end of the month I will have everything organized and then Corey can get help getting all the big furniture out of the office/guest room. We have to move the desk into the dining area, store the bed and nail table in the garage, move out his book shelf (not sure where), and the black shelfs by the others in the kitchen. We definitely have a lot of big furniture in that room. It will be weird to see it empty for a while!
School started again last night and I was not in the mood! I ended up crying all the way home and almost all night. It was a rough day and I was missing my daddy. Today is a better day and I feeling more optimistic. I just wish he was here to help me with all the baby stuff that I need to research! I know that being back in school is making my dad proud and there is no way I could quit now, plus I am eager to finally graduate this time. I know it is going to be really hard to finish school when our baby is here, but I am determined to make it work.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
Today is made for venting
I had a fabulous weekend with my family! Friday night I didn't do anything but relax at home. Saturday I woke up VERY early and went with my mom, Marissa, and Rylee to the Gateway to walk the 5k for Race for the Cure. It was really hard about 3/4 of the way through but I am glad that I made it. I actually felt pretty proud of myself for walking that far. We went shopping at Old Navy and my mom bought me some maternity clothes for the summer that should last a few months. I am finally starting to buy bigger shirts so they will last longer than a few weeks. My mom and I ran a few more errands and then I went home to show my mom how to cut vinyl. It was a really fun day with my family. I went to bed early because my legs hurt so bad. I got leg cramps at 3 am that morning before the walk which probably made the 5k that much harder. I was just ready to lay down that night. Sunday I laid in bed until I was forced to get up. It was Mother's Day and Corey was so sweet and gave me a card (that had Monkey's ultrasound printed in it) and the movie Cars. I love Pixar movies and it will be great to start a collection now for our little one. We met my family for brunch at Mimi's Cafe and I had the best french toast! I will probably always get that now. My mom gave me a big bottle of lotion and maternity summer pjs that are so cute! We hung out at my mom's house after and then headed over to Corey's parent's house for a BBQ. The weather turned ugly yesterday and we had to eat inside. We hung out for a few hours and got home before 7. I watched a movie in bed and crashed fairly early. I keep getting the leg cramps that I just want to lay down.
Today has been a rough day, but I guess those are to be expected. Between the horrible leg cramps that I can't get rid of and the rib pain I feel like I am losing my mind. I am really missing my daddy today too and people keep asking me how I am doing (regarding my dad) so it just puts me into a funk and depression. I am still trying to cope and the shock feeling is gone so hopefully people understand when I don't want to talk. It is by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me and nothing is ever going to make it all better. Some days (like today) all I feel like doing is crying. I guess that is okay though and I will make sure to feel my emotions rather than bottling them up.
Tomorrow is going to be a better day.
Today has been a rough day, but I guess those are to be expected. Between the horrible leg cramps that I can't get rid of and the rib pain I feel like I am losing my mind. I am really missing my daddy today too and people keep asking me how I am doing (regarding my dad) so it just puts me into a funk and depression. I am still trying to cope and the shock feeling is gone so hopefully people understand when I don't want to talk. It is by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me and nothing is ever going to make it all better. Some days (like today) all I feel like doing is crying. I guess that is okay though and I will make sure to feel my emotions rather than bottling them up.
Tomorrow is going to be a better day.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Baby bump watch: Week 15.5
Here is one picture I took on my phone when we were in Colorado of my bump. I can't believe how much it changed in 6 days from the last picture I have on here at almost 15 weeks. So fun and yet so crazy! Oh and these are new clothes in the picture that I love... I ended up in Colorado without any pants and had to go shopping. Maybe I subcontiously did that? Hmmmm....
Week 18
No more excuses - I really need to post photos soon! I still haven't had a chance (or the patience) to figure out how to load the pictures off my new camera, but I am sure Corey could do it for me. I will have him take pictures today or tomorrow since that marks 18 weeks and then we will load them. My belly looks so different from the last pictures on here at week 14 or 15. I am loving my belly - although I feel very large. I guess when you work hard to eat well and exercise to keep a flat stomach, it is hard to see it grow. At least I am growing life in there and not cheeseburgers!
Things have still been really hard since losing my dad and I am not sleeping well. I can't get over the thought that he suffered in his last hours and that no one was there to help or comfort him. I keep getting told that he wasn't alone and that he wasn't suffering because God took care of him. I really want to believe that. I am pretty sure that if I didn't believe in some form of God that I wouldn't be as optimistic about the situation as I am. I am trying to stay positive and I am trying to keep my stress level down because I don't want to cause any harm to my baby. I know my dad would want me to celebrate his life and to be happy that he is no longer in pain. I still reference my parents a lot (not just my mom) and then I realize that I no longer have a dad to turn to. My dad was my rock and helped me so much emotionally and finacially and was always a good listener. No one will ever replace him! I believe that he is watching over me and my baby every day and he can't wait for me to the mom I always talked about being.
Tomorrow marks 18 weeks and baby will be the size of a sweet potato- about 5.5-6 inches and weighing about 7 ounces. I am finally feeling a lot better and no longer throw up all the time. I am only taking nausea medicine about once a day and that is if it is a bad day; otherwise I can go all day without taking anything. Last week however I came down with a really bad cold and decided to go to Instacare on Sunday night since I was not getting any better and thought I may have ear infections. I did not have ear infections, but I did have a sinus infection so I am on antibiotics which finally seem to be working today. Lots of drainage and my ears are starting to feel better.
Last Tuesday (April 26th) I went to see Dr B and I took my mom with me. We heard Baby's heartbeat and my mom was thrilled. Corey and I decided to invite our Mommy's to our ultrasound appointment that is on May 12th (9 days to go!). I am so excited to find out what we are having. I think once we know it will give me motivation to clean out the guest room that will be turned into the nursery. I am still thinking we are having a girl, but we will know for sure in just over a week. Corey is leaning towards a boy, so one of us has to be right!
Mother's day is on Sunday and I know all the holidays are hard for my mom without my dad here, but we are all here for her and helping her get through things. No better time to celebrate what an amazing woman my mom is! I think we will do brunch and then I will probably figure out if Corey's family is doing anything. Rylee's second birthday was just two days ago and we had a monkey themed birthday party - I love monkeys! The party was low-key which was great and I think we all had a good time. Rylee sure loves money!
Things have still been really hard since losing my dad and I am not sleeping well. I can't get over the thought that he suffered in his last hours and that no one was there to help or comfort him. I keep getting told that he wasn't alone and that he wasn't suffering because God took care of him. I really want to believe that. I am pretty sure that if I didn't believe in some form of God that I wouldn't be as optimistic about the situation as I am. I am trying to stay positive and I am trying to keep my stress level down because I don't want to cause any harm to my baby. I know my dad would want me to celebrate his life and to be happy that he is no longer in pain. I still reference my parents a lot (not just my mom) and then I realize that I no longer have a dad to turn to. My dad was my rock and helped me so much emotionally and finacially and was always a good listener. No one will ever replace him! I believe that he is watching over me and my baby every day and he can't wait for me to the mom I always talked about being.
Tomorrow marks 18 weeks and baby will be the size of a sweet potato- about 5.5-6 inches and weighing about 7 ounces. I am finally feeling a lot better and no longer throw up all the time. I am only taking nausea medicine about once a day and that is if it is a bad day; otherwise I can go all day without taking anything. Last week however I came down with a really bad cold and decided to go to Instacare on Sunday night since I was not getting any better and thought I may have ear infections. I did not have ear infections, but I did have a sinus infection so I am on antibiotics which finally seem to be working today. Lots of drainage and my ears are starting to feel better.
Last Tuesday (April 26th) I went to see Dr B and I took my mom with me. We heard Baby's heartbeat and my mom was thrilled. Corey and I decided to invite our Mommy's to our ultrasound appointment that is on May 12th (9 days to go!). I am so excited to find out what we are having. I think once we know it will give me motivation to clean out the guest room that will be turned into the nursery. I am still thinking we are having a girl, but we will know for sure in just over a week. Corey is leaning towards a boy, so one of us has to be right!
Mother's day is on Sunday and I know all the holidays are hard for my mom without my dad here, but we are all here for her and helping her get through things. No better time to celebrate what an amazing woman my mom is! I think we will do brunch and then I will probably figure out if Corey's family is doing anything. Rylee's second birthday was just two days ago and we had a monkey themed birthday party - I love monkeys! The party was low-key which was great and I think we all had a good time. Rylee sure loves money!
Monday, April 25, 2011
Week 17
Tomorrow starts week 17 of my pregnancy and I am starting to feel like the time is going by really fast. I am starting to feel a bit better... still nauseated a lot, but no longer throwing up my guts. I feel massive, but everything else is the same size except for my belly. Everyone call tell I am pregnant now (instead of looking fat) and everyone was rubbing my belly like I was Buddah at my dad's services. Watching my belly grow has been pretty amazing. I feel that Corey likes watching it grow and tells family and friends to check out my bump which I find absolutely adorable. I don't know what I would do without my amazing, supportive husband these past few weeks.
Corey and I are still taking weekly belly shots (although we missed the week when we were in Colorado) and we still haven't loaded any of them onto the computer.
As for size... it sounds like my baby is the size of an avocado now and measuring between 4.5 to 6 inches! It must be a HUGE growth spurt week. Most say they feel their baby move around 16-22 weeks and I asked Anja today when she felt her little girl and she said in week 18. Hopefully I feel our baby in the next few weeks. I am sure it is such a great reminder that there is life in there that you are solely responsible for.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning that I invited my mommy to and she is really excited. At that appointment I will schedule my ultrasound to find out what we are having! I hope I am having it done the following week and I can't wait to start shopping! There are only so many things you want gender neutral!
Corey and I are still taking weekly belly shots (although we missed the week when we were in Colorado) and we still haven't loaded any of them onto the computer.
As for size... it sounds like my baby is the size of an avocado now and measuring between 4.5 to 6 inches! It must be a HUGE growth spurt week. Most say they feel their baby move around 16-22 weeks and I asked Anja today when she felt her little girl and she said in week 18. Hopefully I feel our baby in the next few weeks. I am sure it is such a great reminder that there is life in there that you are solely responsible for.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning that I invited my mommy to and she is really excited. At that appointment I will schedule my ultrasound to find out what we are having! I hope I am having it done the following week and I can't wait to start shopping! There are only so many things you want gender neutral!
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